Sudden Change

by marrie
I always wonder, kenapa orang susah sangat nak berubah jadi baik. Jadi baik bukan untuk orang lain pun, untuk diri sendiri jugak. It's easy for me to feel annoyed dengan orang orang yang degil (susah nak berubah nih), as I am 'changed'. The most logical answer is the fear of losing.

What happened to me was, whenever the idea of changing came, the worries tag along. What if people see me like this? Won't they be puzzled? Would they ask me why (for the change)? Would people avoid me (for the change)? When the real question to be worried about is WHO WOULD I WANT TO PLEASE FOR THE CHANGE?

It often was hard in the beginning, bila nak mula mula pakai baju belang belang warna warni neon tu. You know what I mean. Tapi bila skali dah jadi tu, achievement kot! Rasa macam nak, "Lihatlah DUNIYAA~! This is me!" *Background lagu Demi Lovato


How to? --- is a big question, too. The first thing you need to get rid of is the fear of losing tadi tu. Losing apa, you might ask. Losing the pleasure you feel living in imaginary fantasy of your own. Contoh:

Fantasy #1: Pakai ikut fashion = cantik dan lawa

Fantasy #2: Hero kat drama = wujud

Fantasy #3: Happily ever after = Hapily married with the loved one


Zap zapp zhapppp!!! People, please wake up and live in reality. Contoh:

Reality #1: Cantik dan lawa = Sedap mata memandang
Extreme Reality #1: that is menutup aurat

Reality #2: Hero kat drama = tak wujud sebab nobody is perfect. BUT---we can TRY to be perfect. Never give up, dear darlings
Extreme Reality #2: TRYING to be perfect is NOT easy. BUT---every effort counts, dear darlings

Reality #3: Happily ever after = is in JANNAH ie Syurga aka Heaven
Extreme Reality #3: We can arrive there after we're dead, and death is not determined




Now, let me stop here. I'll make some room for you to take a deep thought. The time has come.