Illusion of Anxiety

by marrie

I see it 12 when it's actually 11am.
The anxiety of mine causes this.
I am not intending to write a poem or anything,
But I just need to express these words.

Now, the time is ticking.
No.
It always and ever will tick.
As I'm searching the right word to say,
The best word to display,
Time flies away.

Half an hour has passed.
I am still looking for words.
Sitting all alone, listening to the blowing wind.
Soon, my illusions will come true.
It'll be 12 for real, and I'll be seeing 1, too.

Drama Cinta Luar Biasa

by marrie
Di sebuah restoran terkenal di sekitar Damansara, kelihatan sepasang kekasih sedang berbual serious. Diyana kelihatan tenang, namun Riz agak resah.

***

Riz: Diyana, please. I betul-betul sayangkan you. Why are you doing this to me? You kata I was your everything?

Diyana: Yes, you were my everything. Sekarang I dah sayangkan orang lain.

Riz: Senang je you cakap kan, Dee. After what we've been through, you nak tinggalkan I macam tu je?!  You pun tahu I dah plan nak kahwin dengan you next year.

Diyana: Riz, please. You need to get over me. Okay, look. You kata you sayang I, kan?

Riz: I betul-betul sayangkan you, Diyana Syazlan.

Diyana: Okay, then. Kalau you betul-betul sayangkan I, Let me be with the one I really love.

Riz: Pffftt!! Siapa ajar you ni? Kalau I sayang you, I kahwin la dengan you. Kenapa I nak lepaskan you and biarkan orang lain jadi ayah kepada anak-anak you? But, phew, Dee. Luckily you cakap macam tu. Tiba-tiba sayang I untuk you dah hilang. Okay, semoga you happy dengan the new guy. Bye!

Diyana: Riz...

***

Sekelip mata, adegan pada permualaan cerita berubah peranan. Diyana kelihatan terpinga-pinga tidak terduga akan kedinginan Riz mengakhiri perbualan serious mereka.

"Kembang Kempis Perut Aku Baca!"

by marrie

ya, kadang-kadang saya skrol balik thru the page, dan baca entri-entri sendiri. Bukan syok sendiri, tapi evaluate diri sendiri. Itu bahasa komersial; evaluate. Kalau bahasa akhirat sikit dipanggil muhasabah. Dan, saya juga sedar bukan satu, bukan lima, tak, bukan seratus dua puluh tiga jugak, tapi banyak. Banyak gramatikal error, biarpun bahasa Melayu macam saya tengah buat sekarang, mahupun bahasa Inggeris. Ada saja yang menimbulkan perasaan jengkel pada para pencinta bahasa dan para linguists. Maafkan kami, blogger samasumo (mungkin nama blog ni sendiri dah mengembang-kempiskan perut kaum Jepun).

Bukan tanak betulkan, bukan takda masa nak cantikkan. Tapi pada saya, biarlah cela itu tinggal di situ. Sebagai peringatan yang saya ni tak perfek, tapi perlu perfekkan diri. Ya, mustahil untuk jadi perfek, semua orang maklum tentang tu. But, what counts is the effort. Put whole lot of effort, and success will follow.

Live in Love.

It's Chess We Are Playing

by marrie

It's a game of chess.
In order to win the game,
First,
You have to know the rules.
Only then you can plan your moves.
Get to know which piece plays the best,
Which move is the worst,
How to set a trap
Or traps, perhaps.

Players.
They are not always eager,
They just play
Along the way,
Just to get through the day,
Hoping to feel gay.

Expectator.
Some may grasp strategies of the players,
Some may not.
They came to watch,
To kill some time,
Scratching heads trying to understand.
They often failed, though.

This is a game of chess.
You must know,
and understand,
and alert,
and master the board,
the pieces,
the opponent,
In order to win.

All the best!

yes, we do have problem here

by marrie

orang terkadang tidak akan berasa puas. kebanyakannya akan kerana soalan yang tak termampu dijawab. lebih selesa berdiam diri? pasti ada yang berani berdiri menegakkan pendiriannya. saya tidak puas, dengan tindakan sesetengah individu. mengapa perlu mencabar? apa jenis kebaikan dan kelebihan bakal si pencabar terima dengan cabaran cabaran yang tidak munasabah?

hakikatnya, kita dirahsiakan dari pelbagai benda. hakikatnya, kita malas ingin mengambil tahu. hakikatnya, kita ingin segalanya dilakukan dengan jalan TERpintas. hakikatnya, kita dikelirukan dengan maklumat dan sumber berbeza. hakikatnya, kita gagal mencari platform yang sesuai untuk berbincang dan mencari jawapan.

pesanan samasumo buat semua; jika anda ingin berdebat, berhujah, berpendapat, bermanifesto, tolong please silalah cari platform yg sesuai to do so.

Hard for Us

by marrie



If this is hard for you,
This is hard for me, too.

I once read
That being mature isn't about doing what you want,
But doing what you should.

You once asked,
Several times, actually,
Why aren't you matured?
And I didn't have an absolute answer, really.

I did begged
For you to take more time
For us to be wiser.

You are a wise man
Wiser than anybody else, in fact!
Even so,
At some situations, you just lose it.
And I'm going to tell you that
It is the hardest when you did.

If this is hard for you,
This is hard for me, too.

I do believe
That everything needs patience,
And I'm doing it
When I am in the sound of silence.

You did apologize.
Too many times,
I'm sick of it.

You knew it was wrong,
But then again you'll repeat the act.
I'm sick of it.
Yes, I really do.

I gave up,
I backed off,
I got over.

I'll reminisce,
I'll miss,
I'll say
'I'll meet you when I meet you.'

If this is hard for you,
Then
This is hard for me, too.

by marrie

Ahmad: AJL malam ni ke? (pandang Minah)

Minah: Err, tak tau la.

Roslan: Kau tak layan AJL eh, Minah?

Minah: Aaa.. Aku dah lama tak dengar lagu lagu. (Roslan angguk angguk) Kalau dengar lagu cam, 'Eh. Lagu apa nih?!'

Dalam hati Minah: Aku rasa kalau aku dengar lagu balik, mesti aku layan perasaan, emo emo gitu. Kalau putus cinta, 'You just somebody that I used to know~' Kalau kawan tinggalkan, 'Never mind, I'll find someone like you~' Kalau in 'it.s complicated' relationship, 'kita. Main tarik tali.' Baik aku dengar bunyi kipas. Takdela tension tension. YEAY! SORTED OUT